It requires strength to let it go and love again. It requires strength to let it go and pick up the pieces.
When you get your heart broken, you have to find the power to make the decision inside of yourself. Don’t determine how to act based on what he is doing, what he has done. What he might do. What he is capable of doing. You can’t control any of that. You don’t have a say in any of that.
Instead, ask yourself those questions and take time to listen to what you have to say. Take a lot of time. Keep a journal. Document the roller coaster. When you feel like you have moments of positive clarity, remember to write down what it was you were doing, thinking, feeling. Try and keep recreating that environment. At the same time, ride out the sadness. Ride out the anger. Ride out the doubt. The confusion. Fear. Impatience. Disgust. Feel them and move on.
Each day you will wake up and not know how you will feel. When your heart is ripped open, it seems like this is magnified, but that unpredictability is just a part of life.
You don’t know and you can’t control what tomorrow brings or how it will make you feel.
You can only control how you will react.
It will take time, but one day you will wake up and decide. And when you do, take that first step towards trust, and believe that the choice you make will be the best thing that has ever happened to you.